Laurus - Lisa C. Hayden, Евгений Водолазкин

At times I found myself so frustrated with this book because of the turmoil experienced by the protagonist, but at no point did I want to stop reading. The protagonist, who undergoes several name changes, experiences some of the worst life has to offer, and at one point, despair seems to drive him literally mad, but the more he is tormented, from within or without, the more he gives himself away in the service of others. While young, he experiences trauma that shapes the remainder of his days, and he spends the majority of his life trying to make up for a sin/mistake that can’t be fixed. Moments of torment intertwined with moments of beauty comprise the lifetime of Laurus, a soul that heals others but that itself will not be healed.